Monday, December 27, 2010

Campur dan Aduk

When I find myself in times of trouble
Mother Mary comes to me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
And in my hour of darkness
She is standing right in front of me
Speaking words of wisdom, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Let it be, let it be
Whisper words of wisdom, let it be

And when the broken hearted people
Living in the world agree
There will be an answer, let it be
For though they may be parted
There is still a chance that they will see
There will be an answer, let it be

*****

So well, lagu ini beneran bisa ngegambarin apa yang gue rasain sekarang. Haha it's not even about falling in love or whatsoever... Gue cuma kehilangan seorang sahabat. He has been such a very good listener to me, not even worse. Gue kehilangan dia karena keegoisan gue yang secara enggak sengaja ngebuat hubungan yang dulu berjalan dengan baik jadi ancur. My bad, sorry.

If only Doraemon and his pocket were really exist, gue mungkin bakal ngelakuin segala cara buat dapetin benda tersebut. Karena apa? Karena gue pengen mengulang semua kesalahan yang pernah gue lakuin, yang secara gak langsung berefek terhadap kehidupan gue yang nantinya akan 'bersih dari noda' tersebut.

"Hey! Wake up!" ujar sebuah suara yang ngebangunin gue. Gue heran, dan kemudian ingin membuka mata tapi enggan.

Gue harus bangun dan ninggalin semua yang pernah gue sesalin.
Gue harus terima beginilah adanya, this is my capacity.
Seperti kata Gulliver di film terbarunya... "Keep pretend that you're cool with that, even though you're really not."
Seperti kata sipir Leonardo di Inception... "God loves violences. He teachs us just the way it is."
Dan terakhir, seperti yang biasa gue lakukan di Steel Mongolias... "Smile, it enhances your face value."

With being cool with that, pretending won't be so bad.


Friday, December 24, 2010

If Only I Was Taller...

"No Buses"

Lady, where has your love gone?
I was looking but can't find it anywhere
They always offer when there's loads of love around
But, when you're short of some, it's nowhere to be found

Well, I know your game, you told him yesterday
No chance, you'll get nothin' from me
But now she's there, you're there, everybody's there
He's in turmoil, as puzzled as can be
Just like me

Let's go down, down, low down
Where I know I should not go
Oh and she thinks she's the one
But she's just one in 24
And just 'cause everybody's doin' it
Does that mean that I can, too?

Lady, where has your love gone?
It was the anti-septic to the sore
To hold you by the hand
Must be first, be in demand
How he longs for you to long for him once more
Just once more

Let's go down, down, low down
Where I know I should not go
Oh and she thinks she's the one
But she's just one in 24
And just 'cause everybody's doin' it
Does that mean that I can, too? Oh...

Her eyes went down and cut you up
And there's nothing like a dirty look from
The one you want, or the one you've lost

An ache in your soul is everybody's goal
To get what they can't have
That's why you're after her
And that's why she's after him
But sayin' it wont change a thing
And they'll realise that it wont change a thing
Realise that it wont change a thing

*****

this song's good :) dari Arctic Monkeys tentunya.
Gue cukup seneng karena liburan kali ini, yah walaupun gak bisa dibilang nice, cukup menyenangkan. Kegiatan gue tiap pagi juga cukup sehat, ngegowes dari rumah sampe ragunan dsb. Btw, ada kejadian malu-maluin *kayak biasa* yang terjadi saat gue beli sepeda.
Jadi ceritanya gue lagi seneng banget liatin Fixie, pas gue menyuarakkan hal itu... Dia mendukung sangat. Jadi langsung lah kami menuju tempat sepeda di bilangan Jakarta...

A: Mas, ada fixie gak?
B: Ada kok, disini ada yang udah jadi sama rakitan. Kalo yang dari pabrik kualitasnya bagus, rakitan bisa milih sendiri... blablabla
A: Ha! Bagus tuh yang ijo, berapaan Mas?
B: Iya, 4 jutaan. Coba aja kalo udah fix bisa DP terus dikirim kok...

Tiba-tiba Om Agus dateng dengan santainya, gue termenung. Ah jangan-jangan niatan syahdu gue mau dibatalin nih. Dengan pelan dia berbisik: "Vel... Emang kamu nyampe?"
Dengan entengnya gue menjawab: "Nyampe lah! Sependek apa sih gue."
Om Agus hanya mangut-mangut sambil menyerahkan semuanya ke gue. Nanti kalo udah selesai kabarin aja, katanya. Asik! Nice chance buat gue berhubung dibolehin beli yang kayak gimana aja.

B: Ini kak, dicoba aja dulu sepedanya. Nanti framenya terserah yang kayak gimana.
A: Oke, Mas.

Disitu ada dua engkoh Cina yang merhatiin gue. Haha rasain loe, udah keduluan sama makhluk keren.
Dan pas gue naikin.........

CETIT

"MAS ADUH MAS TOLONG PANTAT SAYA KECEKLEK MAS!"

Gue mengaduh-aduh dengan amat teramat tidak keren. Dua engkoh cina bajingan tersebut melihat dengan penuh kasih, saking kasihnya pengen gue jejelin Teletubies.
Ternyata kawan... Gue gak nyampe naik fixie tsb. Samasekali. Mas masnya cuma bisa ketawa prihatin. Gue mulai menyesal kenapa gue gak pernah liat iklan Kamasutra Hi-Lo dengan seksama.
Dan beralihlah gue menuju barisan sepeda lain. Agak sedih sih, mengingat hampir banget jadi beli. Tapi yaudahlah, mungkin kamu bukan jodohku.
So, sepeda apa yang gue beli pada akhirnya? Folding! Yak, lipet. Dan gue bales dendam, kali ini gue beli yang saddlenya gampang diutak-ati sesuai mood. Dan bergigi. Gue gak mau kalah dari jodoh tak sampai gue tersebut. Dan kini kami hidup bahagia.

Cukup disini curhatnya kawan, ontheway Bandung :)


Monday, December 13, 2010

Useless Sadness

I'm making this article on half of holiday, and this is not for the first time I did it. So what else? Yes. I'll tell some stories about me first. Then we'll go on the prime topic.

I think it's normal to be rascal sometimes, to show people that you still got humanity point. And for me, it's normal to do something we really want too. Though it's so hard to accept for anybody else. You were just need to sounding it out.

Some friends of mine told me that they got so many distractions lately. And guess what I was saying?

"Hell, no. You're not alone. You may sad, upset, or disappointed, but the only thing that useful to do now is doing some positive activity. Look around. There are still many kids outside that have no house to stay in, or even a delicious food to eat. You must take a look of that side, don't just argue something that wasn't worth for..."

That's it. I just know that every niceness in life, must not be able to see with some different sight, but we need some grateful feelings to move on and on.
So what else to waste? Your beautiful tears are super priceless, ya know.

But, once again, if your tears already blunt with your feelings, get it out. Cry harder, hardest, as well as you can. Just did it on your way. Then, when it finished already, just let it go. Don't make any sense of that. I always note it in my head and it works perfectly to ease every pain.

It will build you as a stronger ones... Better than you were. I do believe in miracle, but we need to make it REAL. We aren't living in Cinderella world, right? It's so last year for us wait someone to come and bring us on a peaceful home. We need to fight to find our own happiness. And that's the way it is.

I need to know my true living.

I'm logically believe that someday I will. Time will heals every wound, more than everyone have known before...
Let's just found it and live in eternity.


Friday, December 10, 2010

Homesick

Hello, how's going on your... Uhm, holiday maybe?
Kinda sad that I still in my dizzy days. No longer in test, but still curious about the result. Hope all the best for me. Yeah, at least I've honestly tried.

So tonight, I'd like to say that I got freedom for days! Yeay! And what about now? What I'm gonna do? Of course something like... sharing something. Ah, this is a nice song. I bet you'll like it. I really love the lyric because it's just like you try to find something untouchable, that you know it does exist.

You can't reach it, but you know you won't lose your only hope.
You know that you can never just forget it easily. It's like another piece of your abandoned soul.
But you should fight for it. Now or never.
Because things, will never stay the same, for twice and more.


"Homesick"
Kings of Convenience

I'll lose some sales and my boss won't be happy
but I can't stop listening to the sound
of two soft voices blended in perfection
from the reels of this record that I've found

every day there's a boy in the mirror asking me:
what are you doing here?
finding all my previous motives growing increasingly unclear

I've traveled far and I've burned all the bridges
I believed as soon as I hit land
all the other options held before me
would wither in the light of my plan

so I'll lose some sales and my boss won't be happy
but there's only one thing on my mind
searching boxes underneath the counter
on a chance that on a tape I'd find

a song for someone who needs somewhere to long for homesick
because I no longer know
where home is